One Pissed Off Lady . . .

Wow, just when I think I'm over this, I'm right back there. And I never know why I slide back there, I just do.
I'm so sick and tired of working my life away, never seeing my kids, enjoying the things they do or even enjoying watching them do things.
All my life I've felt as though my kids should wear shirts that say, "My mom won't be here, she's working."
I think of all the things I've missed and all the things I continue to miss, because my ASS has to go to the office and work.
No vacation, no PTO always having to work.
Now none of this would bother me half as bad, if all the freaking parties involved would pull their damm share and work too.
Bill and Melissa both are able bodies, capable of working, BUT WON'T !
I'd love to just say. . . You know what, I think I'll just stay home, and if I do there is no paycheck and no paycheck for me, means none for you. . .
I'm sick and tired of parents who put all the responcibility of providing for the children on ONE Parent. . .
I want to go to school events, watch my kid preform, eat lunch with them, pop in just to say "Hi" or stay the night, Why can't I get to play hookie with them every now and then, help with homework, make afterschool snacks, be a part of their projects and most important, be a part of their lives!
One day I'm going to get to plead my case before the Big Guy, and I can't wait because I really feel he's the one who understands most how I feel.
I just wanted to be a really good mom in life, that was my dream . . .

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