What if I make the wrong CHOICE ? ? ?

I was so sure that I didn't want to date this guy.... Bobby Owens, I mean after all, this motor cycle man I had been chasing for years had wondered back into my life and was proclaiming his love for me and I had waited for so long on this guy. I had chased him for 2 years, all the while he was running saying that he wasn't ready for a commitment. But now he realized that "I" was worth the risk and he had said he had waited on the side lines all the years, waiting and watching the girls grow up and waiting to step in when the time was right. That time being, he said, "Once the girls don't need you as much as they need you now".

So what do you do with a choice like that. I had LOVED Johnny and I didn't even really know this Bobby guy, I just knew there was something different about him and I was pissed because I couldn't figure it out.
He (Bobby) had 3 small children and Johnny was like me, ours were raised or almost raised. There were so many things I already knew about Johnny and he had not just been my love but also a best friend. I kept telling Johnny that I couldn't even think about another relationship but ours and all the while I couldn't stop thinking about Bobby.

I had to choose and I couldn't.......

I was so afraid of making another mistake, I couldn't even choose. So I choose both. Taking turns talking to and seeing each of them, and the longer this went on the CLEARER it became........... I had to choose Bobby!

I didn't know right away why I couldn't reach Bob the day after we had gone to Denny's the night before. I just knew I had tried to call about 3 times throughout the day and all I got was voicemail. So I had convinced myself that, I was right..... He didn't want to see me again, but the truth of the matter was that he had drove a couple of hours into Arkansas, to call it quits with a woman he had been dating for a short time. See's he wanted to date just one girl and that one girl, just happen to be me.
I know all of this sounds made up, just like reality TV, but it's true and you couldn't make this stuff up I promise.

One beautiful night, while lying on my bed (completely clothed) me and Bobby were talking about what we really wanted in life and Johnny calls.
He told me to just tell him that I didn't love him anymore and really mean it and he wouldn't call again. He said for me to choose and choose carefully because the time had come to decide. So I said it, knowing in my heart that I didn't love Johnny anymore, I couldn't, because although I didn't love Bobby at this point, I just knew I couldn't let Bobby go ! ! !

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